I'm not sure how to feel. I'm gonna try and stay active despite how bad the situation is.

I'm basically living off of my credit right now. As a favor to people who have never done that before; don't. It can seriously hurt your credit score and makes it a lot harder to get more credit cards in the future.

But I don't really have a choice in the matter.

I saw something that actively improved my mood over the last 24 hours and it made it possible to drag myself out of my emotional slump and try to focus on things again. Job search is still a dead end until I hear back from my potential employer.

Until then, it's a waiting game. An awful, uncomfortable, waiting game.